Monday, January 14, 2013

The ghost of 20 years.....




It’s been 20 years since Bombay witnessed the riots of 1993. It was my first encounter of life threatening violence as a small boy. The Bombay riots were in full flow in the terrible months of Dec 1992-Jan 1993. Until then, life for me was fun with friends and family intertwined with homework, play and school.  But, it all changed in those horrible 2 months as the full blown impact of violence destroyed the last  shreds of innocence. I have hated seeing blood all those tender years. But the terrible display of it on TV channels and news with people cutting each other was and is still etched in my memory and vividly. The religious nature of the riots changed for ever the religion distinction in my mind . Ever since those past of 20 years, Mumbai has been haunted by the past in  the form of Bombay Bombings(1993), the serial blasts in the trains( 2003 and 2006)and the 26/11 terror attacks(2008) which can be perceived as acts of retribution.
Bombay is a metropolitan city which harbors the dreams of many.  It’s a fast city where work ethics are appreciated and display of political connections largely frowned upon. It’s a place which houses an astonishing 2 crore people and from diverse backgrounds. It’s a largely plural fabric and caste/religion based discriminations are largely avoided.
This all changed in a matter of 2 months as we watch our city burn. The violence was incited in 2 phases each lasting a period of 1-2 weeks. The December 1992 phase was largely due tothe retribution sought for the demolition of the Babri Masjid. This phase lasted exactly a week and fizzled out. The blood shedding was largely restricted to certain areas in Mumbai and did not spread to the fringe areas like mine. I was in a good convent school and we had quite an appreciable number of Muslim students. The schools closed down in the wake of violence and we are quite enjoying the holiday during those turbulent times. It was a daily dose of fun and frolic minus the homework for us.
However, things turned from bad to ugly in the second phase of the violence in Jan 1993.The second phase was clearly incited by the local politicians. They wanted revenge for the earlier killings and incited mobs to go on killing spree. The wounds of the first phase were still fresh and what followed was a systematic destruction of life and property. Swords, knives and all sorts of sharp objects were mobilized . Hindu and Muslim mobs  went on a rampage and started lynching each other as  sworn enemies. Torching of humans became common and destruction of property omnipresent. This time around even fringe areas like mine were not spared.
 My locality had a Hindu majority with a few people from the minority communities. We were a community of 36 building spread across around a 75-100 acre area. Each building was geographically distributed and there were no common gates. Hence, each building was forced to look after its
own security. Till that day, the sharpest object I had come across was a scissor and a sharp knife. And then suddenly I saw swords, axes and all weapons being gathered in my building in those early days of January. The very elders whom I have laughed with and played along were disturbed, red eyed and fearful. Then, one of the buildings had an idea and they installed an alarm bell in each of the resident's house. Along with this was also the start of the night vigils as the violence escalated in the mid January phase. I still remember that we were all inside the house by 9 pm. The elders would keep a watch through out the night. I also knew the place where the weapons hidden. One night my buildings had a power failure. At this juncture, for  the first time the alarms went off. I had read in a book that you could taste fear and my young nubile mind never had grasped the idea. But, that very night I knew what it really meant.As a complete chaos ensued of shouts, yells and running feet throughout the building, I never knew when I started crying. And then I realized I wasn't alone.AS my mom put a reassured warm hand around us 3 children, the elderly men folk went in search for the reason why the bell went off. This scene is a photographic memory in my head and surfaces every time but lately has disappeared. It wasn't until an hour later that the elders returned. My uncle had a mark on his hand because of steel rod being hit. It turned out they were only two people carrying iron rods and ran off seeing the site of so many people. There were one or two more false alarms but then life limped back to normal in my locality. The swords disappeared in time and the alarm bell as I came to know later was removed.
Bombay was never the same city after the violence of 1993. The event changed our lives forever and segregated the Mumbai demography in ghettos. The Muslim population shifted to the vicinity of areas like Mumbra, Kalwa and Andheri.  Amjath, Yasmeen and their family moved to Mumbra. Theirs was the worst plight as they had stayed with us for a decade and long. The violence had badly affected them and though our society besieged them on to stay they never thought of that as an option. Bombay also never repeated the communal violence again. We have been rocked by bomb blasts and enticements ever since. But, the plural fabric of Bombay stood strong and did not let revenge happen again. Under a strong vigil, we have built a new city, a new resilience and an undying spirit called the "Spirit" of Mumbai. And ever since that fateful month of January 1993, I have also avoided a like sounding alarm in all my houses. There is no pointing in bringing back a ghost of 20 years.....

Friday, January 11, 2013

The overflowing wardrobe

I made a definite resolution to clean my wardrobe last Diwali. I share a 2BHK accommodation with 3 other friends. However the lazy bums that we are…we never take care of maintaining the room in a decent state. each of us would blame the other for not maintaining the room in a decent state. so after much fuss we  agreed to go through the process of change aka cleaning up our room of two.
Now, all said and done I did enter the process of shaping my room after a year or so. Both me and my room mate are sport freaks. this causes us to participate in  ritual sport activities. now this has a disastrous effect on the room ambiance with tshirts and undergarments surrounding our beds. I do have a decent wardrobe where I organize my office clothes. But then habits are habits. It didn’t take too much time for that to         overflow as well. Now if you can do imagine a scenario if a key or an important object  like a purse gets lost. frankly its a torture. not only do these thing happen when u start ur day a causing a severe headache. those piles of clothes have to be moved up and down and you end up finding a needle in a haystack. And wat’s with men and shoes. I seem to be having a vast array of them which includes running shoes, formal shoes, casual ones, white canvas, brown leather etc etc. Finally, I did put myself in my shoes and put a thinking hat, literally and mulled over the situation.
Just arrange it..my heart said . But, my brain battled on thinking its not a simple arrangement that is the solution. It wanted to probe deeper. And then I had it. I cautiously started counting all my clothes and classified them to the exact count in the table. I had not only spilled but overflown my needs. The count of tshirts only came to 50 and counting the other garments I stared at a grim figure crossing a century and high above.I had clearly no need for such an excess. And I took one of the most difficult decisions for which I still repent today. I cut down the excess. I had been accumulating and itwas time to let go.
Now this does look to be a simple exercise. But I started realizing that I was just not able to part with my clothes. On the first iteration I barely scratched out anything. Lot of these were personal gifts and parting with them was not easy. With more determination and after much heart burns…it was done a very trimmed list and a bunch of load of clothes to donate. Donate I did…foolishly to my watchman.
Its always good to cut down on excesses. Maybe we need such exercises in books, personal relations, movies etc. But as my watchman washes the cars wearing my favourite rock t-shirt..I think its more of a rogue to be condemned to watch what once was your favourites on somebody else. Nah…can never digest that somehow. Atleast, no close donations for me next time……